Thursday, March 3, 2011
♥ lifeis just like that
Its been a long time since I updated here... Well I been busy working.. not that I think about it why should one work so hard? Promotion? more $$? Sometimes I wonder about things maybe I am not suited for working I tried and tried but it just wont work out... sadly yes I know we need money to stay alive. I know I got personal issue well who don't? No one is perfect yet why do people want people to be perfect? I know words can hurt a feeling I know sometimes the truth stinks. I was talking to a counsellor 1half yrs back he agree i have emotion problems and its best i seek for therapy as back then i didn't know how to handle emotion stress i seek to psychology as it was psychology that help me thru poly. As I wanted to take up the course in Positive Psychology, well I am still going to take the course just that now i got the expected experiences but not the dough. As i know it will come in handy for me to cope with my life and to understand myself better. Cause I know life is hard and we got to move on, people change everyday of course there will be people who hates you. Its true I MIA in many people life cause I could not handle the stress people lay on me esp in money problems.
I wonder How many people have had borrowed money from me and never return. An I wonder how many people have had betrayed me and back stab me through out the years. Its kinda funni the way people are, They can backstab you black list you even put a you on the I don like nor do I wan to be your friend list. But on the other hand I cant do that why?? good question is cause everything will be its her fault to begin with. I always studied computer understanding the concept off the way a computer works to be honest a computer is just like a human. We need people to tell us hey I am going to program this, I am going to input this info into you. I admit I cant work well with others as i often ended up as a loner doing everything.
Sometimes I wonder to myself what the point in everything since the end result is the same as ever...
Everyone got good points and bad points, NO one NO one is perfect. And I guess its time to move on for me.. Like a friend's friend said cut ties...
I wonder How many people have had borrowed money from me and never return. An I wonder how many people have had betrayed me and back stab me through out the years. Its kinda funni the way people are, They can backstab you black list you even put a you on the I don like nor do I wan to be your friend list. But on the other hand I cant do that why?? good question is cause everything will be its her fault to begin with. I always studied computer understanding the concept off the way a computer works to be honest a computer is just like a human. We need people to tell us hey I am going to program this, I am going to input this info into you. I admit I cant work well with others as i often ended up as a loner doing everything.
Sometimes I wonder to myself what the point in everything since the end result is the same as ever...
Everyone got good points and bad points, NO one NO one is perfect. And I guess its time to move on for me.. Like a friend's friend said cut ties...
10:06 AM
Sunday, September 12, 2010
♥ ~>.<~
I phone 4 will be getting white lolz... i know la i havent been updating i n o time mah working till siao le... hahahahaha.. k la i go back work work....
3:42 AM
Monday, August 23, 2010
♥ ~Fun~
... i am back from the curise haha... its was fun tho it was only 3day =(... but nvm there will always be another time ... tho i come back the stupid printer not working i cant do my work if its not work =( ... sigh... my room is a mess need to clean...
9:47 AM
Friday, August 13, 2010
♥ ~Lifeless~
life is like Filming. We flim happy moments, sad moments, angry moments...etc.. yet its so drama in the middle no one notices it. I may lead a life of the anime person since young but I know what its like being in a shoe. Most people say aiya you dont even know how it feels like to be the manager, the boss, boyfriend, girlfriend... it's all the same don't you think?
I am 25 this year been in more drama life style in the past... well I will be going on a on a mini holiday next week will post some pics then in oct will be going on a real holiday keke... hongkong =) to celebrate my birthday. I wanted it to be special this year and I be celebrating it with the person whom I tresure the most =x...
Tho my everyday life is super drama and lots to blog about. I been kinda lazy right after work I come home sit in front of the computer first thing anime second thing game and slp...
I am kinda tired still tho I just wake up.... Guys are often blinded by love but there are so many different types of love. For me if i choose I would be in and anime and do all kinds off things till old.... I try not to do that cause else ppl will say can you face the reality ....
9:42 PM
Friday, June 25, 2010
♥ ~Colors~
I just watch sex and the city 2 online. Its true that we have to color our own life instead of other ppl coloring for us. I may not have that many ppl in my life to being even tho I never had any best buddies to hang out with much... most of the ppl in my life are either come and go, needing me for only 1hr or pple who just want my company yet never want to be friends some are scare to be close to be some just thinks I am strange person and alien for outer space... yet I know its not easy getting to know ppl.
But I am who I am.... its strange when I said I be leaving singapore and no wants, wants me to leave... I don fit in... I never fit in... all the time well most off the time i shut myself in to my room knowing no one will mit me execpt for some guy who only wants my company for just 1hr complaining to me that I never spent time with him when he not even my boyfren... The think is there are millions off ppl out there I know everyone is diff and everyone have a diff calling. I always feel out off space cause I am in diff from ppl... my boyfren says I can never be a high class social light but thats not true its just that I don have any super rich frens to being with. I am just me all alone to start with. The only thing that most properly well kept me in comfort was most likely my computer...
The show really gave me a thought... i bet no one really realize that blogs can be a story too just a matter off how one creates and publish it. I going to save up alot off money to go somewhere 3yrs later... my mom always says I got no future to being with since birth. But time flies very fast. There is nothing wrong with me and my boyfren maybe the fact that we do spent little time together now. I wonder if there is really a gentleman out there who does not fully make use of their woman money I wonder but chances of that now I think 0... well no one is that perfect not even me. my life is in a black and white color... nothing have gotten its colors... and I know that I am the least wanted person on earth...
But I am who I am.... its strange when I said I be leaving singapore and no wants, wants me to leave... I don fit in... I never fit in... all the time well most off the time i shut myself in to my room knowing no one will mit me execpt for some guy who only wants my company for just 1hr complaining to me that I never spent time with him when he not even my boyfren... The think is there are millions off ppl out there I know everyone is diff and everyone have a diff calling. I always feel out off space cause I am in diff from ppl... my boyfren says I can never be a high class social light but thats not true its just that I don have any super rich frens to being with. I am just me all alone to start with. The only thing that most properly well kept me in comfort was most likely my computer...
The show really gave me a thought... i bet no one really realize that blogs can be a story too just a matter off how one creates and publish it. I going to save up alot off money to go somewhere 3yrs later... my mom always says I got no future to being with since birth. But time flies very fast. There is nothing wrong with me and my boyfren maybe the fact that we do spent little time together now. I wonder if there is really a gentleman out there who does not fully make use of their woman money I wonder but chances of that now I think 0... well no one is that perfect not even me. my life is in a black and white color... nothing have gotten its colors... and I know that I am the least wanted person on earth...
8:00 AM
Thursday, June 17, 2010
♥ ~Moe...moe...~
-_-" sigh... my mother arh... really arh... last tues she ask me when are you getting marry? huh 25 yrs old le still staying with us.... -_-" sigh... see la... i still soooo young my mother want to throw me off to the streets sigh .....
kay la i go back work le....... later at home then update
kay la i go back work le....... later at home then update
3:15 AM
Thursday, May 20, 2010
♥ ~KABOOOM~
wah wah wah wah wah wah >.< someone tried to pick mi up from the streets sia =_=" funny part is I was only like walking home and I am like 4-5 blocks away from home Zzz....
Anyway Saturday I will be collecting my K-on figuring le =x hehehe soon I will take a special photo for you to see le =p slowly la... anyway I will be building a page soon to come soon This time I promise you I be using my own skills to build. =x so look forward to it ... Zzzz I just need to remake my sever then =s aiya I been so lazy to make mah... oh I am not chainging my blog skin I love this skin tho not made by me but i like cause cupcakes =3
Anyway Saturday I will be collecting my K-on figuring le =x hehehe soon I will take a special photo for you to see le =p slowly la... anyway I will be building a page soon to come soon This time I promise you I be using my own skills to build. =x so look forward to it ... Zzzz I just need to remake my sever then =s aiya I been so lazy to make mah... oh I am not chainging my blog skin I love this skin tho not made by me but i like cause cupcakes =3
3:00 AM
