Friday, June 25, 2010
♥ ~Colors~
I just watch sex and the city 2 online. Its true that we have to color our own life instead of other ppl coloring for us. I may not have that many ppl in my life to being even tho I never had any best buddies to hang out with much... most of the ppl in my life are either come and go, needing me for only 1hr or pple who just want my company yet never want to be friends some are scare to be close to be some just thinks I am strange person and alien for outer space... yet I know its not easy getting to know ppl.
But I am who I am.... its strange when I said I be leaving singapore and no wants, wants me to leave... I don fit in... I never fit in... all the time well most off the time i shut myself in to my room knowing no one will mit me execpt for some guy who only wants my company for just 1hr complaining to me that I never spent time with him when he not even my boyfren... The think is there are millions off ppl out there I know everyone is diff and everyone have a diff calling. I always feel out off space cause I am in diff from ppl... my boyfren says I can never be a high class social light but thats not true its just that I don have any super rich frens to being with. I am just me all alone to start with. The only thing that most properly well kept me in comfort was most likely my computer...
The show really gave me a thought... i bet no one really realize that blogs can be a story too just a matter off how one creates and publish it. I going to save up alot off money to go somewhere 3yrs later... my mom always says I got no future to being with since birth. But time flies very fast. There is nothing wrong with me and my boyfren maybe the fact that we do spent little time together now. I wonder if there is really a gentleman out there who does not fully make use of their woman money I wonder but chances of that now I think 0... well no one is that perfect not even me. my life is in a black and white color... nothing have gotten its colors... and I know that I am the least wanted person on earth...
But I am who I am.... its strange when I said I be leaving singapore and no wants, wants me to leave... I don fit in... I never fit in... all the time well most off the time i shut myself in to my room knowing no one will mit me execpt for some guy who only wants my company for just 1hr complaining to me that I never spent time with him when he not even my boyfren... The think is there are millions off ppl out there I know everyone is diff and everyone have a diff calling. I always feel out off space cause I am in diff from ppl... my boyfren says I can never be a high class social light but thats not true its just that I don have any super rich frens to being with. I am just me all alone to start with. The only thing that most properly well kept me in comfort was most likely my computer...
The show really gave me a thought... i bet no one really realize that blogs can be a story too just a matter off how one creates and publish it. I going to save up alot off money to go somewhere 3yrs later... my mom always says I got no future to being with since birth. But time flies very fast. There is nothing wrong with me and my boyfren maybe the fact that we do spent little time together now. I wonder if there is really a gentleman out there who does not fully make use of their woman money I wonder but chances of that now I think 0... well no one is that perfect not even me. my life is in a black and white color... nothing have gotten its colors... and I know that I am the least wanted person on earth...
8:00 AM
